We are all in search of a deeper meaning in life; a way that, we believe, will lead us to happiness.
For me that would probably be reading Russian literature or having a conversation with new people. Or better yet, sitting on a lonely beach at dusk… That I think will make me happy from within.
What you consider to be a meaningful life will obviously be different from the way I see it. But what about the means to living it?
I feel that being present is the key to being satisfied, to living the life we dream of.
Whatever it is that you’re doing, you can convert it into a rich experience if all of you is present in the moment. If not, the experience will be bland and incomplete. And what is life if not a bundle of experiences strung together?
Let your hair down. Get a funky haircut without caring. And don’t worry about what people say. Everybody is too busy thinking about themselves to be judging you. They are just as insecure as you are. They, like you, just want to be heard.
You don’t need to be concerned with those who are too busy looking in through your window when their own house is on fire.
I remember a quote which is quite relevant here:
“Most people think everybody feels about them much more violently than they actually do; they think other people’s opinions of them swing through great arcs or approval or disapproval.”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender is the Night
But being social animals, us humans cannot help but compare ourselves to others. So by all means, envy people you think are better than you. But try and realize that it is not the the person you envy, it is his spirit.
You assume that certain people are at ease with themselves; that they are settled, when it might not necessarily be so – it is just what their aura conveys. So it is okay if you want to be like them because it is that sense of control and peace that appeals to you. And once you realize that, make conscious efforts to be at peace with who you are.
In the end, don’t be too hard on yourself.
And never forget that somebody out there loves you for you.